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21

Jul

afro-centricqueen:

Happy Birthday Dr. Huey P. Newton (Co-founder of the Black Panther Party); because they don’t want us to know he had a Ph.D in Social Science. They want us to think he was just some ignorant, trouble-making thug.

afro-centricqueen:

Happy Birthday Dr. Huey P. Newton (Co-founder of the Black Panther Party); because they don’t want us to know he had a Ph.D in Social Science. They want us to think he was just some ignorant, trouble-making thug.

20

Jul

Past the terrible two’s into the milestone of three… happy birthday to tumblr me :)

17

Jul

He paid me in chocolate

Always a bridesmaid.  Never a bride.  How is it that I go away to an academic boot camp and still end up as a tutor?  I don’t mind helping… it helps me to know that I understand the concepts and it helps others as well.  Win-win, right?  Until help becomes expected.  Until small favors become like small change found all over a house, collected to add up to meaningful dollar amounts.

She asked me to help her adjust.  Of course.  She began to cling.  ~  She asked me to help her with her writing.  Of course.  She wanted me to practically write the paper for her.  ~  She wanted me to get her breakfast for her.  Okay.  She starts requesting food regularly.  ~  She wanted me to hold her phone for her while she gathered her things.  Okay.  Her things were in the same room… and she did not need an extra pair of hands for the things that she gathered.  ~  She asked for help in comprehending the lesson.  Alright.  She comprehended so loudly that it got me in trouble in class.  ~  She asked—  No.  That was the last straw.  I feel like she’s using me.  And it’s not right.

So I told the homie.  He was the first person who I helped here.  He said that he would have my back.  He said that he was against her using me.  And he bought me a king-sized Hershey’s bar with almonds to show his appreciation.  To show that he wasn’t about her life.

But then the language changed:  ”Toss me some pages where I can find the main points in your articles.”

1.  You’re not even in my class.  Why do you need my notes?

2.  Articlessss???  I only teach one tomorrow… are you trying to swindle your other homework assignments out of me?  (You are not Chris Brown in Stomp the Yard… and I am not one of those chicks.)

3.  Did you not read the text?  Pretty straightforward…  

4.  Since when is a command acceptable?

It was then that I realized that the homie was only the homie because I called him the homie.  Without the title, he too is just a user.  The only difference is that instead of having me work completely for free, he paid me in chocolate.

A sweaty, chocolate bar from Club CVS.  With a hand-written note to say, “You are appreciated, LAVAHI.”  But why?  And for what?

She used me.  He used me.  And he paid me in chocolate… smh

15

Jul

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14

Jul

I love you.  And it’s terribly difficult for me to let you go.  Because all I want to do is be with you.

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13

Jul

When I am a Mommy, I want my babies to know that I love them.  Just as certainly as the knowing that they were divinely created with purpose and with love and with light and with spirit and with beauty and with goodness, and with truth, I want them to know that I love them more than life itself.  I need them to know that their Mommy loves them.  More than life itself.

I’ve been ghost

I’m in Andover working in the IRT program.

And today is a big homework day.

So I will be ghost again.

Just wanted to say,

"Hello!"

29

Jun

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